"And how shall they preach, except they be sent?" Romans 10:15a
I worked in the “corporate” world for about 12 years. Ten of which I worked for an insurance brokerage/consulting firm. Here are a couple of memories that I have of my “time served”…….
The manager of the office I worked in could not find anyone who wanted to work with a particular man because of his “mood” swings. One girl after the next in the office kept saying “no way, I can’t/won’t work with that man”. This man was gay but he was one of the “closet” ones. He never came out and admitted it but I could feel that spirit there. (I actually found out recently he is getting "married" to another man. I didn't know that was legal here in Texas!) I was asked if I would work with him and I said, “Yeah, sure, I can handle him.” (thinking with God’s help I could).
During the time I worked with this man, he did take good care of me in the way of making sure I was getting the promotions and money he thought I deserved. Now, people in God know that God is the One Who actually controls those decisions and not the men who are on power trips and “think” they’re in charge. I mean if God will use a jackass, He will surely use a gay man too to get done what He wants done! He got a lot done using him for me. I was promoted to an Account Manager with the money to go along with it. And I thank God and give Him all the glory for that!
Let me sidetrack here for a sec....Don't get me wrong here, I don't hate the person, I hate the sin. I'm not a "gay basher" but according to Romans 1:26-28 it's not right and is definitely unnatural - "For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature: And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompense of their error which was meet. And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;" JESUS can deliver a person from that spirit if that person wants to be delivered. Whew, this is a whooole other topic. Let's move on...
But going back to before I was promoted when I worked directly with this man….
Each day I had to work with him, I’d go in and have to feel him out to see what kind of “mood”, or should I say “spirit”, had ahold of him that day to see what I was going to have to endure the rest of the day. (I’m talking temper tantrums, ranting and raving, throwing things at his door.) It was so bad that even when the insurance representatives came to see us, they’d stop by my desk and ask, “What kind of mood is he in today?” before they went into his office. If they didn't have an appointment with him, and if I said it was a "bad" day, they wouldn't stick their head in his office. They'd give me a sympathetic smile and truck it on down the road.
Anyway, this man knew my Dad, Dennis is/was a preacher. He took every
opportunity he could to bash my Dad to me in his so-called joking manner. He
apparently saw him preaching on TV one Sunday morning and came in on Monday
making fun shouting out “Did ya’ll see Angela’s Dad on TV yesterday? You shoulda
heard him…..And GAAAAWWWWD SAAAAAAAID!” I thought, keep it up, keep it up. God
will judge you. Some may think that cruel of me to say, but if a person is
against the Word which IS JESUS, I will boldly say that person is my enemy.
can’t even begin to tell you how much he disliked my Dad. He didn't even KNOW
him yet he hated him. (He actually hated the Word that he had is what it really
was.) I’d tell him off then he’d say he was just joking. I played the “game”. If
any of you have been in the corporate world, you know exactly what I’m talking
It was so ironic. One day he would be nice and seem to genuinely care about you, and then the next, knife you in the back. I got to where I constantly kept a wall up around him not knowing what he'd do or say next. It hurt me the first few times that happened; but, then I just accepted what he was and expected it.
He also seemed to stay in a constant state of fear. A fear of something being wrong with his health. He was always going to the doctor to go and get himself checked out for this or that.
I was always being asked by him if I was "serious" and "committed" to the job. He was afraid I would run off with this "preacher" Dad of mine and leave them high and dry. What's funny is, that's exactly what happened.
This man, along with others, was always in competition with everyone. So-and-so just got a new house over in such-n-such area…..sooo, I’m thinking myself of getting a house that costs this much more than that over here. And, so-and-so just got a new Bimmer….I’m going to get me a new Mercedes. And so-and-so’s car is over a year old so it’s a piece of junk. It was so sickening to me. Yet I went back day in and day out making the almighty dollar saying I was nothing like them.
Ha. Yea right. I’m sorry, but when I spent that much time around people that were not in God, and I wasn’t going to church at the time, I had become just like them. Whatever spirit you rub shoulders with is what is gonna rub off on you if you don’t receive the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost through the Word.
As I read the following verses the other day, I sadly remembered some of the people I worked with...
“Turn you at my reproof: behold, I will pour out my spirit unto you, I will make known my words unto you. Because I have called, and ye refused; I have stretched out my hand, and no man regarded; But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof: I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your fear cometh; When your fear cometh as desolation, and your destruction cometh as a whirlwind; when distress and anguish cometh upon you. Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me: For that they hated knowledge, and did not choose the fear of the LORD: They would none of my counsel: they despised all my reproof. Therefore shall they eat of the fruit of their own way, and be filled with their own devices. For the turning away of the simple shall slay them, and the prosperity of fools shall destroy them. But whoso hearkeneth unto me shall dwell safely, and shall be quiet from fear of evil. (Proverbs 1:23-33)
No one there wanted to hearken unto God. They despised anything that had to do with God. I could hear it in how they talked. Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. It was all about greed. Working to get this, working to get that. I mean come on, don’t they know they can’t take it with them? The “things” of this world are only temporary? What a life. To sell your soul to the storefront and then to burn in hell for eternity!
People really don’t believe they will burn in hell forever or they would do something about it. They would get ahold of God and find the truth. No, sadly, most everyone out there believes they’re going to make it in just fine.
There was an individual from work I asked to go to church with me years ago. She and her husband came to a service. Dad preached and the service was one where the Holy Ghost was moving and Word came like fire. I remember her husband being prophesied to about the pain he was in every day and how he trudged on to work despite the pain he was in. The Lord told him his family didn’t know his pain but that He did. My heart went out to him.
Afterwards, she said to me, “I don’t go to church to be yelled and screamed at. I go to church to socialize.” I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. Unfortunately, I knew right then what she was made of. At least she admitted the truth – she goes to church to socialize. She's one of the many who go to church for the sport of socializing.
“Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it. (Matthew 7:13-14)
I will say that I’m praying for those individuals. Especially the few I was close to at the time. I pray God leads them to the cross no matter how He has to get them there as He did with me.
I thank God He “body-slammed” me back into this ministry. I literally got to the point one day back in April of 2004 that I could not force myself to get up out of bed to go to work. Some people may not believe that but it’s true. God made it to where I couldn’t make myself go. For one solid week I was slammed down to the ground. And I do mean slammed down. And of course, after a week of not going in to the office, the manager fired me. He had no choice. And that was the end of my “time served” in the corporate world.
I had received a word from my Dad that I was going to get fired seven years before that actually happened. Then again, a few months before I got fired, he prophesied to my Mom, Diane, my brother, Brad, and my sister-in-law Melanie that I was going to be body-slammed back into this ministry. And sure enough, it happened. I thank God for it as I no longer feel that “monkey” on my back and I sleep peacefully every night.
Now I work day in and day out for JESUS. People in the world will think that's "corny" or "crazy" but that's alright with me. I just hope and pray I've done God's will for my life by the time I die so I will hear well done thou good and faithful servant.
For I don’t want to be one who is greedy of gain wasting what few years I have of this life chasing a dollar bill….
“So are the ways of every one that is greedy of gain; which taketh away the life of the owners thereof.” (Proverbs 1:19)
Please pray for me as I strive to receive the things of God. I've got a long way to go myself!